Solitary.

HELLOOO :D

So today I'm gonna let you know a lil more about me.
As if you don't know me well enough yet.
HAHAHA
This might sound as if it's a sad post..
But it actually isn't. HAHAHA.

SO.
If you know me, I used to be someone who was very reliant on people,
I couldn't be left alone. I felt so weird.

But I guess as I grew older,
I became less outgoing, more reserved.
To the point where I really enjoy being alone right now.
I like walking around window shopping alone,
I like having free time to just sleep at home and watch movies.
Well. I think part of it is due to the fact that I work a lot
and rarely have time for myself.

OH WELL! :D

Aaaanyways

So over the past few days, I've been at
AD 2014 , as well as ICE Camp 2014

So here are the pictures from AD on Sunday, 14/12!
[P.S Yes I wore the same thing as I did last year, just that this year I had a different hairstyle and a different accessory ]

With my partner in crime, Pavan.

He's also the chairman of the event.

I'm so insanely proud of him. I really am!

He's grown and matured so much since AD last year. :D

With Rihrih! HAHAH Even though my shoes were so high

Still nowhere near his height. I will always look like a midget beside him I guess

With the Standcomm and Exco present at AD!

We celebrated Shafieq's birthday. :D

And here's my other partner in crime. PERRY! 

So glad to have him in publications this year.

Very very thankful for him!

And here's my publications committee.

Yes all of them were at AD. YIPPEE :D 

I'm very proud of them too

Having to design posters honestly isn't as easy as you think it is ><

And last but not least, my "date" for AD.

We were pretty much separated for the whole night though.

HAHAHAHAHA. 

Anyways thank you for being such a gentleman in my life.

We look hella awkward. OHWELL 

Next up, I met up with the girls on Tuesday night for dinner at 

DGood Cafe, as well as dessert at Sunday Folks :D 

Had a really great time catching up with them,

they're such a wonderful bunch of girls

And I'm really really thankful that God placed them in my life.

To hear my rants and sassy insults and stuff

And to support me at work (: 

Last but not least, 

ICE CAMP 2014! 

Here is my group, Athenians!

Honestly when I heard all the group names,

I wanted to be in Athenians.

Because.. Well..

Athena.

The other groups names were

[I AM SORRY IF I SPELLED IT WRONGLY]

Odyssians 

Spartans

Trojans

Arkadians 

Theotians 

But yeah, IMO Athenians sounds the best

[IM SORRY IF YOU DISAGREE YOU ARE ENTITLED TO YOUR OWN OPINION OKAY ]

Okay so here are the pictures!

And this is my favourite shot coz 

It shows how weird we all are. HAHAHA 

And here's pictures with ChuckChi! :D

And the sweetest nephew ever.

[the one in the middle HAHAH]

Yup! So ...

Before I end this post.

I'm just gonna say.

My ICE Camp crush.

ISN'T a camper.

Okay that's all I'm telling.

I'm never gonna see him again anyways

And I'm very sure he didn't even notice me.

Because well. I'm invisible.

Oh yea that's another thing about me.

HAHA.

People see me, people just don't notice me.

OH WELL.

Life of Val I guess :/

Okay tata for now!

Thank you for reading <3

Bunny x 

"Wanting so badly to love and be loved, but you're too scared and stubborn to let your guard down"

alis volat propriis

O, where heART thou?

Hello, Good evening :D 

I'm down with the flu, so that sucks.

O mighty med kit pls heal meh

So today I'm gonna talk about

Me. Myself. And I.

Self-centred much? HAHAHA yea oh well.

So here's the thing.

I. DON'T. HAVE. A. HEART.

Now before all you haters start going like

" YOU HAVE A HEART OTHERWISE YOU'D BE DEAD U DUMBASS "

I AM NOT REFERRING TO A PHYSICAL HEART.

I'm referring to what you say when you say

"I'm heartbroken" .

THAT heart.

I honestly legit-ly think that I do not possess one like it.

HERE ARE MY REASONS WHY!

ONE.

If you know me,

You know that I'm the most straightforward,

insulting person.

I don't usually sympathise with people, 

neither do I see the need to.

I'm not nice with my words,

I'm direct, 

I show you mean faces and long faces when I'm unhappy.

I don't bother masking how I feel 

And I don't bother to please people

that I do not need to please

[e.g we all know we have to suck up to our superiors at work]

I have friends at school and at work.

Who always appear to be the nicest people ever.

Even if they don't feel happy with you,

they still smile and all that.

They wouldn't yell out of anger that often.

And they constantly sound positive and all that.

Trust me, that isn't a bad thing.

Sometimes I really wish that I could be like them

Okay, so here's reason TWO.

I don't have the ability to like-like someone.

By that, I mean to view someone in a romantic kind of way.

Like sure, I've dated. But I can honestly say

I've never loved any of them.

I was just attracted to them, that's all.

Over 18 years, I've had my heart broken once when I was 14.

And I guess I've never had it back since then.

OH WELL THAT ISN'T A BAD THING.

Yes, I do wish that sometimes

that I would be seen as one of those sweet little girls

with pure little hearts.

But no I'm not.

I'm heartless.

And I guess I've come to accept that.

Ok you may now stare at how bad I am at dressing and at posing for photos.

While I drown myself in what is known as SIP

As usual,

Thank you for reading.

I really mean this from the bottom of my human being.

<3 

Till next time,

Bunny x

alis volat propriis

Living to please.

Hello!
So today's post is a little bit of a rant.

So most of you would probably know that I work.
Here's something I would like to say on behalf
on EVERYONE who works.

I DON'T TELL YOU HOW TO DO YOUR JOB, DON'T TELL ME HOW TO DO MINE.

I am extremely done with people telling me "You need to blablabla".
No, I have been trained and I know that I don't NEED to do whatever you just said.
If you REALLY have to state your opinions,
Say "Maybe you should," or "How about you try blabla".

Don't go up to someone and be like "HEY YOU NEED TO DO BLABLABLA".
Excuse you? Who's the one holding the job?

Yeah okay I'm somewhat done with my rant teehee.

In other news, I've been saving up for an iPhone 6 but..
Well. There were some complications.
Boohoo ):
There's a chance I might not get to change my phone till April or June.
:l
Another rage inducing story.

And on a happier note.

I'M DONE WITH SUBMISSIONS FOR THIS TERM
[Well, except for SIP but that's easy so IT'S OKAY]

WOOHOO FREEDOM

Hopefully that means I'll post more.
And I've been starting to try to record myself singing.
Not posting yet, but just recording.
Baby steps.

Okay thank you so much for reading! :D

Bunny x

Utopia.

HELLO (:

Yes I know ,
WHERE HAVE I BEEN FOR 19 DAYS?
Well, honestly?
I've been hiding.
From everything in life.
HA.HA.

But I swear, I'm so much better now (:
I don't have to hold back tears in front of people anymore.
Because there aren't any.
Yes I don't deny that when it's dark and I'm alone in my room,
I do feel the tinge of loneliness and sadness
But doesn't everyone?
Okay maybe not.
Sorry :P

Anyways,
I've quit my job at the cafe.
Because I need to start making time for myself.
And also because I can't really cope with studies ><

So.. MingZe came to visit me on my last day! Yippee

WHERE. ARE. MY. EYES.

Anyways,
So this week has been a pretty good week so far.
I've finally made time for myself.
[Okay I didn't make time, the event today got cancelled]
And honestly I didn't know what to feel or what to do.
All I've done for the past 2 months is
work work work work work.
I don't have time for myself,
No time to work out [YES I GREW FAT I KNOW]
Rarely have time to spend with friends.
And most importantly,
don't have time for me to just rest.
Like I'm constantly working.
So today's event got cancelled.
And I was just like '?!?!?!'
And I went home.
I showered, changed, etc.
Sat on my bed, 5:30pm.
Next thing I know,
I open my eyes and it's 8pm

I feel so recharged and so much better.
I finally know what it means to make time for yourself.
Even if it's just sitting at home
Watching shows
Or sleeping.
Just .. being alone and being worry-less for
those few minutes/hours.
It feels sooooo good.

Oh yes.
So on Monday I met with Mou for dinner
HAHAHA Awkward much?
I'm an awkward person, in case you didn't already know
But I had a great time. (:
Hopefully we'll meet up again before December
Anyways, here's some pictures
I look terrible I know oh well.

Freaking iphone 6 cameras need to maintain with their good quality.

Here I am moping over my terrible camera .

OH WELL :P

Oh yes! I met up with HuiMin too <3 I missed her soso much.

Felt so good to talk to her and all again.

She's been there for me since I was the one attending FOC trainings.

And I've ever so thankful for her <3 

[throws up at how terrible I look] 

Life in USS is still amazing as usual.

Here's the ever so good looking Scorpion King. :D

 I actually have one with Puss in Boots too.
But... NAH :P

Okay so I literally have nothing else to post about.

Do entertain me! I have a boring life. 

ask.fm/iffyliciouszxc

Okay that's all for now

Thanks for reading <3 

BTW: Can someone please explain to me what's it like to be pretty.

Like, do you feel more confident and stuff?

Coz honestly I look at every picture of myself and I wanna puke.

HAHAHAA Okay bye!

deluctio

In sheep's clothing.

Little did she know... She was the wolf.

SCROLL DOWN FOR HAPPY THOUGHTS

So... hi?

HAHAHA I don't even know where or how to start blogging.
And I know. I haven't been posting happy posts.
I know I know.
And honestly, this isn't exactly a happy one either.

So if you're looking for happy posts,
they'll be back soon.
I promise.

But for now, I'm just going through a really tough period.
And I just want to give up.
Every single day, it's a struggle 
it's a war in my head.
A fight to stay alive and not kill myself.

It sucks to see how much I've plunged downward.
And how close I am to relapsing into depression once more.
I don't want to go back.
But the amount of sadness I feel the instance I wake up.
Increases as the day goes by.
By the time I go to sleep,
My pillow is soaked with tears
and I'm ready to just
Close my eyes and never open them again.

Someone, somehow please take me back to the times where I used to be so happy.
Everything's going wrong.
And I'm feeling so alone.
I really am.

Maybe I'm wallowing in self-pity,
sure you may despise me for that.
But honestly, my blog is just a channel for me to express my thoughts
and feelings in words.
Because I dare not do that in real life.
I try so hard every single day not to cry in front of anyone.
I'm just constantly trying to keep it together.

Everyone around me tells me that I'm a strong girl.
But honestly, I'm not.
I am crumbling every single second.
And I don't know how much longer I can keep it together
I'm not as strong as what others think.
I wish I was.


ANYWAYS
here's some happy stuff I guess!
Halloween this year was eventful
Okay so if you didn't know, I was pikachu last year.
Yes you may now laugh at me

Okay so yup. This year I wanted to be a character from Once Upon A Time [UOAT]

But honestly I didn't have that much time to prepare my costume.

Otherwise I guess I would've been Anna from Frozen.

Ha.Ha.Ha

So this year I decided to be Red 

because of Red/Ruby from UOAT

If you don't watch UOAT, you should.

Okay I know Red/Ruby is so so so so much prettier

This is what she looks like 

Omg such perfection.

Anyways, I really love her character.

I guess I somewhat relate to her.

I also really relate to Mulan [except for when we last saw her. Not saying what happened coz it's such a spoiler]

And a lot to Regina. Well.. Cause we're all heartless and sad people.

Anyways. 

Here's Halloween 2014!

I had 2 halloween events.

the CASS halloween event on 30 Oct,

which went pretty well (:

With Danielle. Thank you for helping me with my makeup <3 

Then there's SX who had such a hard time with his mask

the entire night . HAHA

And Lynette, so cute :3 

Vince came to find me coz he happened to be in school

So tadah. Pictures with "Waldo"

And here's Kenneth. I didn't have my hood

coz we took a picture at the last minute

After I removed my lip stain and hood already

And here's 05. Such a gorgeous bunch.

Sad that we will be at ITP next year and we won't

be able to spend 3 hours dressing up and doing make up

for Halloween again ): 

I look slightly scary here.

Okay just a note, I was supposed to be 'evil' for this event.

I had a retractable knife. Which I lost in the party room

Oh well.

Here's the picture spam for day 1 

This is my personal favourite

Okay so on 31st October

My church had an event called "Halo-wins"

You're only allowed to dress as a good character.

So.. Yup. I had a basket instead of a knife.

So here are some pictures I took

I have others but they are in someone else's phone

and hasn't been sent over yet.

[P.S - Can you guess which one of them is my sibling?]

Pretty obvious isn't it.

Yup okay that's all.

I'll be back soon.

Hopefully happier. (: 

"The evil queens are the princesses that were never saved" - Maleficent

mortua est