A little light.

Heyhey!

So yeah, today was the best day I had so far this shitty week.
Started off with someone replying me with a very encouraging reply on my previous post.
You know who you are, I am insanely grateful. It really did brighten my day <3
Thank you <3

Secondly, a tweet that says "I forbid you from dying."
When I jokingly tweeted "OMG I DON'T WANNA DIE. HALP"
Due to some stalker thingy.
Teenage girl stalkers. No joke.

Anyways.
Even if that person meant it as a joke, it was nice
For once someone was telling me that I shouldn't die
That there's actually someone who cares or something.
It felt nice.

Then there was no lesson, only consultation
WHOOOPIE.

Yeah but even despite having no lessons,
I have no idea why but I'm feeling extremely exhausted.
I've been sleeping really early these few days.
Like, before 3.

But I still feel extremely tired by the time the sun sets.
I have absolutely no idea why

But yeah. It sucks to feel this tired.
And I really wanna be energetic
(And happy) again.

Anyways, so after I left class I had to meet a few people.
Then though it was more of like a
"YOU AIN'T ON TASK YOU SUCK BUCK UP"
Kinda thing,
A comment made me feel really good.
Someone said
"You've been doing a lot of the work right, Val?"

Like, at least someone notices.
Someone bothers and someone recognises that I've put in so much effort
And it really feels good.

I guess the good thing about being this down is that you notice the little things
And the little things can mean so much and brighten your day so much.

But then again I'm really tired of being this down. Sighpie.
Fighting day by day. It isn't an easy task
To keep on smiling as though you've struck lottery.
As though nothing is against you.
As if the world's perfect.

I'm honestly really tired and just hoping it'll get better.
And that I won't like, go back into depression or anything.
Tho I have better control of my emotions now,
there's always still a risk. Which sucks.

Sigh come on Val.
You'll be fine.

Okay sorry for my sad posts.
I'm just trying to be as real as I can.
And to show that my life isn't always perfect.
And I have no idea why people would assume it is.
Because it isn't.

I just fight.... really hard. Each passing day.

Thanks for reading!
Bunny x

Here's hoping for a good end to a shitty week.

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