Screwed

Was really looking forward to dance today.

Dance really makes things so much better 

But no, got given last minute work again. Literally at the last minute.

Had to skip class. 

No dance, 

Cigarettes in the desk drawer, 

A broken heart,

Tonight is going to be the most painful thing ever. 

On the plus side 

I've been spending loads of time with a cat I named Scrappy.
Every day I just sit there and talk to him. Yes I talk to a cat.
Till 11pm comes and I have to drag myself back home.. And the worst part of the day passes slowly 

And I probably will keep spending time with him.

He just sits on my lap and purrs while I bawl my eyes out. 

So yay. More time to spend with Scrappy today.

Sometimes I'd wish that he'd appear and we'd take of Scrappy together like we used to.
Sometimes I'd wish he'd appear to wipe the tears away and tell me it'll be okay.
But reality hits, he's gone.
'Us', 'we', 'our' 'together',
All gone.
Get that in your head and more importantly, in your heart Val.

Help.
Before I'm gone as well.