Benevolent

So my last post was in February ! Sorry I haven't posted in a while

Coz I was so sure no one reads my blog but apparently people do.

And I'm insanely thankful for you, dear reader, who takes time off to read about my rantings

and all that nonsense

So basically I've been really busy with FOC. 

FOC = Freshmen Orientation Camp

So yeah. I was a GP for SPSU's FOC

#Ascomannipride 

#Valkyrie

But I'll probably dedicate a whole post to the FOCs.

IF I EVER GET AROUND TO DOING IT. TEEHEE

And also, I was a GL for CASS FOC

#VICTORSANYHOWWHISTLE

I don't have pictures in my lappy at the moment,

So I'll probably upload them in another post.

Or maybe not. TEEHEE 

Okay so for today's post. I'm basically just gonna ramble.

AS USUAL

So honestly.. Through the past few weeks. I think I'm being a narcissistic bitch for saying this,

but I think it's finally time that I learned how to put MYSELF first.

Yes I know right, what a narcissistic thing to say.

But hear me out first.

So basically I'm supposed to be involved in an event.

Then they said the other dates were essential,

but nothing much about the day before the event itself.

Fine, maybe it's my fault that I didn't ask clearly first.

But the thing is that one night mama bunny came into my room

and asked if I wanna go to Zhu Hai with Hwin, Hwin's mum and her.

Of course I said yes!

Mama bunny and I have been going through rather rough patches lately.

So obviously I wouldn't pass up this opportunity to like, have mother-daughter time

So I fly off at 6am++ on 15th April.

But I knew I had the event to come back for. So I tried to get a flight to come back 2 days

before the event, but I couldn't find one. And the flights to come back one day before the event

cost like $400-$600 PER TICKET.

Siao right?

So I finally convinced my mum to book a night flight. 

and reach Singapore at 1:30++am , day 1 of the event

JUST SO I DON'T DITCH THE PEOPLE WHO HAD CHOSEN ME FOR THE EVENT

But what happens?

THEY KICK ME OUT 

And are refusing to meet me halfway.

EXCUSE ME WHAT?

Honestly right now I'm just like WHYYYY DID I BOTHER PUTTING THEM AND THEIR

EVENT FIRST?

I should've just came back on the last day of holiday like I was supposed to 

but NOOOOOOOOO I went to think of them and booked an early flight

$300 per ticket. Me + my mama = $600 fly.

Tell me not to be pissed that they weren't willing to meet me halfway

WHAT THE HECK MAN.

So honestly, at this moment.

FRIENDSHIP = OVER. 

Sounds damn immature. But I'm so damn angry and disappointed

and how unreasonable they are being.

And can still tell me "No hard feelings"

NO. FUCKING. WAY.

I just spent $600 to fly back to help you.

And you kick me out and tell me "No hard feelings"?

GO AND BANG A CACTUS PLEASE.

Honestly I don't even know why I bothered putting them first

Since they didn't even bother about me.

Fuck you people == 

Okay yeah so my rambling stops here.

I know I really do sound like some narcissistic bitch, 

wanting people to cater to me.

But the thing is , if I'm willing to meet you halfway,

Why can't you do the same?

Am I asking too much?

Sometimes I honestly ought to put myself first.

And this experience has really thought me that.

Sometimes. Being nice has NO benefits.

So I'm just gonna learn from this.

And if I'm not as nice as I was before,

then too damn bad.

Because I tried being nice and it doesn't work.

Just need to learn to do what makes ME happy.

Unfortunately, it's seeing others happy that makes me happy.

But I'm just gonna try to put myself first sometimes.

I think I should.

If you disagree, feel free to scream at me HERE

I promise not to ignore you.

Nonetheless, thankew for reading this shitass rambly post.

Just really had to get this off my chest coz it was just so disappointing

And not to mention hurtful >< 

Okay tata for now!

Thanks for reading!

Bunny x

Miss my chapteh hair. Cutting it on monday. Boohoo