Languorous.

Sosososososo tired.
Pretty much didn't really sleep yesterday
Hahahaha anyways.

Today I just went to school mainly for the CCA Fair
then a supposedly very fun dinner with Ascomanni.

So basically the CCA Fair was pretty fun actually.
Got a lot of names that joined SPSU :D

So skipping the CCA fair part of today, which was MOSTLY
good, then came some idiot who screwed my day up. HAHAH why.

So basically I enjoy the company of Ascomanni a lot.
They really do occupy a giant space in my heart.
That's prolly why I was kinda affected by whatever I'm gonna tell you .

So basically I planned the dinner for today. And the future Mondays.
Then like, one of our members had a meeting.
So like last week, we waited.
A few of the Ascomanni people haven't eaten since morning,
So I understand that we're hungry and stuff.
But the thing is that there wasn't any complaints of gastric whatsoever,
So I'd assume that it was okay to wait.

At first Captain was kinda impatient too.
Then I told him that one of our members are having a meeting so we should understand
If not like, imagine you go to a dinner after a meeting,
and everyone else has finished eating and are staring at you eat.
AWKWARD much?

So Captain was okay with waiting till 7.

Then came someone , okay we use his camp name initials. F.R
So basically F.R was being a crankyass .
Then like it was obvious that he was irritated by the tone of his voice.
He said "Why not we just go to FC 5 first then the rest can just come there"
Okay first things first.
It's "GO" not "COME" .
Still wanna say that the English of Shaowen's confessor very 'powderful'?
You're no better.
Okay anyways.

Then I was like, "Can you like, not be so .... [covers face while thinking of word ]... angst?"
Then suddenly jitao explode
' You don't know what is angst you shut up '
Then of course I'm taken aback and highly offended, so in my defence ,
"Maybe you should learn how to shut up if you can't speak nicely "
Then coz losing liao right? His reply
' I talking to him also not talking to you. Shut up lah'
I wanted so badly to fight back but nvm.
I am going to be the bigger person.
So I just said
"Enjoy your dinner" , grabbed my bag and went off.
Then a few members of Ascomanni chased me and tried to calm me down
and talk me out of going home and not going for the dinner.

Then I was trying to explain to them how like
I don't want the tension between F.R and myself to ruin the atmosphere of the dinner.
And plus I was legitimately pissed so I really needed time to calm down.
Then like, they somehow convinced me to go by saying
that if I don't eat with them, they won't eat either.

So we went to FC5. Then THANK GOD I SAW A FEW MEMBERS OF ADRIATIC THERE.
So bought our food, did our food cheer and all .
Then sat down. I quickly finished my food, then went to find Adriatic.
I felt so much more comfortable with them.
At least there was no tension whatsoever.

A few times I did consider going back to Ascomanni's table and talking to them
But I heard all the laughter and like, I didn't wanna go there and be a party pooper.
Afterall, I'm not that important. They still can have hella loadsa fun without me right.
HAhahahhaha.
So yeah, I just stayed with Adriatic all the way till picture time.
Hariz did come to sit beside me for a while and ask me what's wrong and try to get me to go back
And for a moment I felt that maybe I was important to Ascomanni.
But come on , who am I kidding. I ain't important to anyone.

I'm not posting the pictures coz I know I wasn't genuinely happy.

Like. I really just feel as if I don't belong in Ascomanni right now.
I'm just an extra replaceable piece.

Ohwell.
When am I not replaceable? HAHAHAH.

Okay yeah things at home are still shit. Ohwell life goes on

Thanks for reading!

Ask me questions HERE

because I have no life and I need a source of entertainment :3 .

Okay thankew so much for reading.
Sorry the past few posts have been so down.
It's just a really tough phase. But I know I'll get through it
and emerge stronger than ever.
I just really need a lot of support and love right now to get through this period.

Daddy wrote to me in the letter for FOC
"You can never taste victory before you taste defeat"
So.. I'm tasting defeat now but very soon I'll be victorious and happy.
I can't wait for that day to arrive.


Okay tata!

Bunny x

-Delora Aurelia Valkyrie